Insomnia

Insomnia...

Yea right! You better be right!

I just don't know why, I couldn't fell asleep when its time to sleep.

I'll just stare at the ceiling, allowing my thoughts to fly...

But I always fell asleep during lectures, and this is totally unaccpetable for someone who failed his mid year common test!

"I realise soon enough that I'm not as good as i thought. But I couldn't resist the temptation to go online, watch animes, read mangas. These had overtook my previous life and had became, well, my hobbies!

But these are the factors that cause my failures, although I worked hard on controlling myself from doing so. From time to time, especially during homework, my thoughts will run away into these fatasy worlds, and there goes my time.

I understand clearly its all about the mindset, but its very difficult, especially for me. I don't b;ame anyone, but myself, for unable to control myself. I always wonder, what could make me change that? Even the failure of the mid year common test, is not enough for me?

I understand all the consequences, but I just can't put it in. What a useless guy."

-I'm sleep talking-

I will force myself to sleep, so that I could pay my 100% for classes tomorrow.